But while I was also very sure Bill was my real Dad, I am a pretty skeptical person. I typically don’t take asserations at face value without some kind of fact based evidence. Maybe that’s what helped me be successful in my IT career. When programming there are no assumptions, no hunches or gut feels. If Bill was indeed my Dad, I would like the evidence be more than anecdotal. “Anecdotes aren’t data.”
However, I wanted this to be true. Why? Good question and one that can probably only be truly fleshed out on the couch with the therapist. That doesn’t mean I won’t give it go right here.
As mentioned, my life with Elmer (dad), in hind sight, wasn’t all it could (should) have been. I was never able share my interests, hobbies and passions with my Elmer. Would I be different if he walked with me, supported and encouraged me to live out my interests, hobbies and passions. I can’t help but say yes. What if we were able to bond, father and son? What if we I was able to talk with him about my problems, the joys in my life? While